The Ally Pally

Just got back from the stamp and scrapbooking show at the Ally Pally, got lots of lovley stash, plenty to play with at the paper dolls crop tomorrow. Got some photos printed off and feel all prepared for a full day of scrapping. Just need to print off some pencil line sketches in case inspiration is in short supply!!

I really enjoy exhibitions and shows and very often go to the Nec (being our local one) but it always amazes me how rude some people can be. Hardly anyone says excuse me and I always end up being barged out the way. I am always worried about hitting people with my hand bag but on numerous occasions get bumped in the back by a ruck sack! I just wish there was a time I could go when it wasnt so busy (dont suppose there is one though!).

Monday morning feeling

Feeling rotten theis morning.
Had a row with Hubby yesterday and I know it was all my fault but cant bring myself to apologise and I know I should. So I didnt sleep well, the tablets are making me drowsey and dont seem to be helping the pain at all. Not even sure I can be bothered to start scrapping, thats how bad it is.

Ordered some new clothes from a catalogue and none of the jeans fit me, I know they are my size but forgot they always come up small in this catalogue, so now I feel fat, but instead of stopping eating rubbish I am eating more in consilation. Feel like I am going round and round on the merry go round of comfort eating!

My pain has a name

I suppose the good news it isnt rhuematoid arthritis but the doctor (a much nicer one than last time, and he actually made eye contact) thinks its fibromyalgia. He has perscribed anti depressants to raise my seretonin levels and hopefully that will make a difference.

I still feel a bit worried though, I know people cope with a lot worse and I should be brave and get on with it but now I really do have to acknowledge that I have a problem. As a persitant ostrich (like to bury my head in the sand) its hard to admit.

Back to Doctors

Well, my test results are in and I am shortly making my way up to the doctors to discuss them. The very helpful receptionist informed me that she couldn't discuss them but if I phoned after lunch the nurse would talk to me. What use is that because I still have to make an appointment with the doctor for medication or more tests depending on what they show??? She was very put out when I explianed the doctor had asked me to make an appointment when the test results came in!

I'm a bit worried actually, I have found a couple of types of arthritis on the internet which it could be but I am worried that it will be a struggle to get it diagnosed properly. I could be worrying for nothing I suppose. I should really be writing this after I have been!

Expect and update shortly....................

Lots of spare time

Well, after another busy weekend of birthday parties and housework Faith has started full time at school!
I picked her up yesterday and all she could remember was what she had for pudding and that she played outside three times!
Arent kids memories great??!!!

I got back in touch with an old friend this afternoon. We had lost touch when I was having trouble with my abusive ex and she was having health trouble. It's a time we should have stuck together really and it makes me sad that I wasnt there when I could have helped her. I was encouraged not to see her and she got fed up of coming round because of what my ex was like. I cant blame her really, he wasnt nice, but it was only me who couldnt see it at the time. The old saying cant see the wood for the trees comes to mind!

Anyway, she is going to come round at the weekend with her family. I am really pleased and we were chatting like we have not been apart. Her health is not good but she sounds like she is battling on. Makes my worries about arthritis look tame!

Tickets

Got my tickets for the stamp show yesterday, they came through the post!!
They are the ones I won off UKscrappers. I thouht I was only getting one, but two turned up! I think we will go on the saturday because its the Paperdolls crop on the sunday. Mom is coming with us this time which will be great.

Faith is having fun at school, I wish it was next week and she was there full time! I will miss her but just going for less than two hours is a bit of a nightmare back and forward.

I always feel uncomfortable waiting for her aswell. I have never been good with the playground politics. As I have said before, I am terribly shy and cant just start chatting with anyone. Everyone seems to know each other from their kids being in the pre school together and I feel like I am back at school!

So this week will continue to be an uncomfortable one which not much chance to get stuff done. I worry that when I am at home Dave will get annoyed if I havent done the housework. His ex wife was incredibly laxy and although she was at home with their daughter all day all she did was chat on the phone and have her nails done. So, I start panicking when I have a lazy day in case he starts getting fed up. How insecure is that???

First day

Well Faith did well on her first day, she said they did nothing and it was boring then continued to tell me loads of stuff she had done! I love the way kids minds work!

Did manage to get some scrapping done. Found this photo of me and Dave in Tenerrife. He took me to see the dolphins as a suprise for my 30th. i was so overwhelmed I proposed to him. Luckily he said yes!!

Monday Morning

Monday again.
Faith starts afternoons at school today, then full time next week. Why cant they just start full time straight off? most kids have been in full time child care before school nowadays anyway. Or am I being presumptuous?

Had a busy weekend. Faith had two birthday parties to go too. I always feel like a bit of a spare part at kids parties. I get on well with a lot of the Mums but I always feel a bit out of place. Its not that I'm unsocial but I guess I am a bit shy (even after all these years). I'm not confident that anyone would actually want to sit and talk to me!

Not had chance to do much scrapping for that last couple of weeks. Lost my mojo a bit. Have to complete a CJ to post today so will do that this afternoon when Faith is at school. Bought two guinea pigs for the girls at the weekend, have to take them for their check up this morning, will put some picks up later.

Thanks for the comments, its nice to know someones out there!!!!!

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Visit to the doc

I finally plucked up the courage to visit the doctor.

I don't do doctors very often, I have to be really ill and have no choice, otherwise I just put it off for ever! But, my back, knees and ankles have been getting progressively worse over the last six months. It used to be that if I did something out of the ordinary, loads of gardening or went out dancing, then the following day I would be really stiff and in pain. Nowadays I only need to stand for an hour doing the ironing to be immobilized the following day. It now seems I have a dull ache across the bottom of my back constantly.

So, feeling thouroughly fed up I bit the bullet and made an appointment, the doctor was very nice, (although didnt make eye contact once) and as soon as I mentioned my father has arthritis decided to send me for blood tests. Yesterday I made the journey to the local hospital pathology department and grudglingly gave three vials of my blood, now I just need to wait two weeks to see what type of arthritis I have and the best way to treat it.

Dont you just love waiting??!!!

I would love to hear from any one else who has similar problems, please feel free to leave comments.